AND A NEW YEAR BEGINS

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GOOD MORNING EVERYONE

need to rewind myself...lol

so grateful to be back home tonight....

HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL

visit from my girls

happy mommies day to everyone

Letter To Sara...from doniele

happy easter everyone

Letter To Sara...from doniele

Where do i even begin.. it always seems easier to picture what your going to write in your head then actually writing it... i feel like i had all these things to say to you like you dont already know.. im sure you are watching down over me, well now "us", i guess if you believe in that sort of thing.. and really i dont, except of course when it comes to you.. i dont like to think that you are actually gone.. its so funny how they say "it takes time" and "time heals all wounds.. well thats a bunch of bs, to be honest i still feel the same as if your funeral was yesterday.. almost responsible.. though i know if i am to blame for anything it might be that i wasn't there when you truly needed me.. you were just too young to die.. and the worst part about it is, the scary part is that i was right down in those trenches with you and yet i am still here.. i am still living.. and even after ur passing u would think that i would have cherished life a little bit more but no, i continued to throw it away... it took me awhile to pull myself out of it.. it took me meeting the "right" person to take a step back and reevaluate my life.. and yet it still took time for me to even let go of my selfish ways to actually let myself be truly happy.. i guess it really can't always be about you if you want to have a truly healthy relationship.. and then after all that i came out with a beautiful baby girl- absolutly perfect.. can u believe? me of all people? a mom? im still in shock, it definately took a few days to actually hit me.. it was wierd, so many emotions, doubts, i was almost scared.. i mean they really dont make manuals.. i cant just look this up on the net.. but the only thing that i do believe is true though which has been my saving grace is that they weren't lieing when they say that it comes natural.. that motherly instinct just kicks in.. i mean i thought with "papa bear" already having two kids would leave me in the dust when it came to being a parent but its completely opposite which is very reassuring.. but overall its fun being a new mom.. and believe me i hated!! being pregnant!! but it was worth the wait and even the pain made it worth it... now i might not go rushing off to get pregnant again anytime soon but maybe someday... oh and ladies when someone tries to tell you that its a breeze and it doesn't hurt ha thats a damn lie!! and thats with the epidural, that might help with the contractions but when it comes time to push, count your blessings!! ..so i guess for now though baby starr will keep me pretty occupied im sure, i already feel that there is not enough hours in the day.. i mean by the time i get her fed and situated its almost like its time to do it all over again!! and since i have been off work i have been trying to work online mainly to keep myself busy and from going insane!! and making a little extra money is always nice :) ok sara, love, enough for now.. much love..miss and thinking about u daily...doniele

here today....gone tomorrow....

brooklin starr

she's finally here....and all is perfect...she's perfect...mama bear is perfect...papa bear is perfect....and the disney/humphrey household is so
very happy to welcome their baby bear....we will post some pics soon and keep
everyone updated on her journey...